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a cup of mommy patience

Michael J. Fox once said that he wouldn’t take his time with his children for granted again. His fight against Parkinson’s disease made him look at life with new eyes. He said, “From now on, if my kids want my attention, I will drop whatever I am doing and give it.” He said he didn’t want to miss the time with them as he had in the past, because you never know how long you will have those moments to share.

Since seeing his interview years ago, I have added two children to my family through foster-to-adopt. I have recalled Fox’s take on life and children many times, continually trying to make my kids a priority.

I am almost finished with the book Choosing to SEE by Mary Beth Chapman. She and her husband, Steven Curtis, lost their five year old daughter in a tragic accident in 2008. Their story is another one that reminds me to cherish every slobbery, yogurt filled kiss, every sweat smothering hug, and the sound of my daughter saying, “Why?” for the hundredth time in one hour.

There are days when I’m doing pretty well at following through with my promise to my mommy self; “I will not make anything more important than my children (or my husband).” It shouldn’t be too difficult to follow through with this agreement since my kids did not come easy. I am blessed to have them with me. I can see how they were plucked out of lives headed for ruin. I love them with all my heart – since the moment I met them.

I could leave you with this fairy tale ending, but frankly, it’s only part of the story. Being a mommy can be difficult. Trust me, I have had my share of those days when you think the walls are falling in. Yesterday and today are great examples. I found myself at the bottom of my mommy patience cup, just wanting to finish a small project (why I ever thought I could accomplish it with two toddlers running around, I will never know).

Then guilt settled in for a long stay. I wasn’t living up to who I wanted to be. The perfect mother.

If I could be realistic, she doesn’t exist – that perfect mother. Yet, I can’t help but wish I was her. All I can do is make great efforts at doing the most important thing I believe a mommy should do, that is to let my children know they are loved. Now I just need the patience and will to do so. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.

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June 17, 2011 at 4:19 am Leave a comment


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